2004-05-25 - 8:41 a.m.
Any correlation between this entry's financial waffling and last weekends bank busting party of SIN in a casino are purely coincidental. NOT.
I am in such a fix. I get roughly 2 to 300 dollars per month to squander on myself and my vexing position is thus.
I need about $700 to replace my dual CD mixers in my studio ASAP. I need a new computer ($3,000) I need a hard disc audio recording solution ($2,000) I need a pwered amp and some decent bins for live music extravaganzas. AND, I need some fucking STEREO's in the house. My god.
I grew up with the finest in audio clarity. Yamaha natural sound amps, Technics tape decks, Pioneer cd players, Tannoy speakers, surround sound out the wazzoo. Since selling and/or giving the whole lot away to go to England, I have had NOTHING and now, as Delicious and me grow in our little palatial spread, we are bereft of stereos. We have what can only be described as the sort of boom box that a homeless man might use as a foot stool, in our loungeroom. That is for entertaining guests with (EMBARRASSING!) Recently I managed to acquire an old broken ex boyfriend's stereo, from a friend, that I rewired to give me something in the basement to plug my all powerful IPOD into.
The only source of music upstairs is my studio monitors which arent really stereo speakers per se, you see, they are "near field monitors" powered by a dedicated 100W amp. Great sound but a home stereo actually has a different type of processor for listening to cds and stuff so you don't really get the same effect. (Didn't you KNOW THAT!!)
I do not have ANY SOURCE FOR MUSIC AT ALL in our bedroom, something I thought would never ever happen in my lifetime. How can I have an Enigma soundtracked love making binge with Delicious without Enigma? ("Do what you want, do it until you find... love)
Music is my constant in life yet if you walked around our house you certainly would not think so. But I am digressing. As per bloody usual. This weekend is memorial day and I think I may have 300 dollars to get the dual cd mixers from my ungreatful friends at the Guitarcenter. But what about the stereo sitch? and my O1w's screen is SO dark now that I cannot even read what sound it is on or how to select another one?
I really need to spend almost 10,000 dollars on stuff to get me right with my creative self. To honor the gift I have. To pay homage to the wonderful creative power I have been given by some unnatural force outside of this dimension. I seriously doubt my Delicious will assert to the need for such a loan.
$5,000? NO.
Did I mention we also need a bed?
GADZOOKS. Realisticly these materials I can do without, well, I do bloody do without them, you BASTARDS. But the need, oh the need for them haunts my every waking moment. The want to use and abuse these wonderful machines tears out my very heart.
WHAT DO I DO?
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